Response to Student

Dear Students💚
Today's message is a reply to an email a new student recently sent me. I am posting her email as she wrote it, though I made a few corrections in punctuation, for clarity. Her first language is German, so please keep that in mind. I will post the email exchange exactly as it happened. I am leaving out her name. She gave her permission to post her emails though. And if she chooses to post something here, she can. Love, Indira

This is my response to her first email (which I have not copied here, since it was long and not so coherent):

Dear One💚
I have read what you have written. Could you please write to me what your exact question is, in a more clear way? You don’t really seem to have asked one, just told me what you are feeling and experiencing. This will also help you to get more clarification for yourself and what your real true question is. The angels always say…if you want the right answer, you have to ask the right question.

So she wrote a more clear email:

Dear judy💚
Thank you for your quick reply. Now I hope I'll get it to the point. My exact demand is—I want to understand, why I can't still  switch to the other state—the state of more surrender, of more being okay with me and reality, of more being myself. Why am I apparently not ripe yet for going the next step? I yearn so much for this condition and I think (perhaps another concept)  that I am so far and so willing. What stops me yet? I feel bogged down, how can I get out? This rubber band makes me helpless, anxious, and also aggressive. What can I do so I don't feel so discouraged? I guess it's more than impatience. For me, it is a great longing, and it´s very hard for me to feel stuck. How can I get out? (I guess) I cannot wait for it to change. In my imagination I see me as a child in front of the closed ice cream shop. Ihat´s what i wanted to ask you. Thank you for taking time for me! Best regards 💚

And here is my response, which may benefit you too:

Dear One💚
Your questions will be answered in the fullness of time.
You are like someone standing in the dark, watching the moon that is only half full, asking:  When will it be full?

In Truth, the moon is always herself, always full, already blossomed. A person with knowledge knows that the moon is always full. That person does not yearn for what it knows is already there.

The search for happiness is itself unhappiness.

Sit in the stillness when you can. Be like a scientist. Observe. Watch. Witness. Learn. Let the Watching be your Teacher. Do your best not to grab hold of each thought and turn it into an “I”

I long to be happy. I am not happy. I am anxious. I am stressed.

This is false identification. There is no I—  no  ME  to  be  anything at all. A me comes into being with each passing thought that you identify with — and so create a myriad of stories. Just let each story pass by. See each thought like a bubble floating past the otherwise calm abode of the mind.

Each thought demands that you give it life. Each thought tells you how to handle a situation — get angry, get sad, get despondent, do this, do that….

The moon grows full before your eyes in the fullness of time — and yet it was always full — only your seeing is not. Breathe in the longing, the pain, and give it a home in your heart. It is lonely. It believes it is real. Let it curl up inside your heart like a small kitten — let it know it can take all the time it needs to grow up — treat it with tenderness and care, not stress and anxiety.

God is with you. Angels are with you. Walk your path gently. Do not be hard on yourself. Be soft. Be gentle. Be accepting. Trust.

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What is Poison?

Nice to know...

Today I had this email from a student who'd had trouble opening her lesson. I sent her it again and everything is fine. She wrote this to me after: "It is so nice to know, you are on the other side of the words you send......"

and I wrote back to her that it is also nice to know that she is on the other end of what I write.

That is what is special about our school and the lessons. You are not reading a book written by someone you have no possibility of ever seeing or having a personal communication with. I love knowing each of you are there, and I mean it when I say I think about each and everyone of you as I write and rewrite the lessons and send them off to you. Sometimes I am thinking about one of you in particular when I write something. Thanks for being there!

This picture is of baby owls with a stuffed toy owl "mother"--after they lost their mother, they needed a new mother to cuddle with and feel safe. So they were given this soft new mother owl. May you all feel just as safe and protected in the arms of the angels.  Your devoted teacher

The hard way or the soft way

Just dropping in to say hello to everyone. I do stop by often, everyday when I can, to visit. I have been reading older posts and finding them rewarding and good reminders of the Truth within. I am so in gratitude to have this place, the open classroom, that is always here. When i am going through some difficulty, I especially like to stop by. I have been choosing a post at random from the archives, and I find it somehow answer whatever question I have and always gives me encouragement and increases understanding.

I have been experiencing for myself that I have to show up and do the work. Sometimes it is not easy for me to keep my eye on the inner work, but it is always rewarding when I do. There is so much in each lesson, I can hardly take it all in. I find when I go back and read an old lesson again, that it is always new. I always see how much I missed. It is like reading a new lesson. So thanks, Indira, thanks classmates, thanks angels. I am overflowing with gratitude today. This school was my first big step into spirituality and it has changed my life. 

I am realizing that this person I call "me" is not the center of the universe. Something ELSE is. Something called Truth or God or Energy. This Energy is directing my life. The more I get out of the way, the more the Energy can show me the Way. It is clear and simple, but not for the ego. The ego always chooses the hard way. The ego is the hard way! The heart is the soft way, the clear and simple way. My ego likes the hard way--it likes to fight and struggle, compete, and come out on top--to win. But the winning of the ego is temporary. And I am beginning to see that it is always painful. When the ego wins, what is it really sitting on top of? A garbage heap. As I have read in my lessons -- when the ego wins, I lose. 

So my recent prayer is that the ego loses. And the heart wins.

I liked the recent lesson on Money. It was very helpful in practical as well as spiritual ways.

Thank you! And here is a starry night, a universe of love, for all of you.

Lord open my eyes wide so I can see

Dear Students,
Here I am sharing part of an email I wrote recently to someone, since it contains some words of wisdom we can all use...

Dear....

Time doesn’t exist except for us as personalities and physical beings, and can be transcended by our relationship with God, by cancelling the false me.

We must take what peaceful moments we can and drink them so we have enough water, like the camel, to carry us across the hot dry desert of human existence to the true oasis.

If we could only see, all suffering would be seen as nonexistent and self-created. Lord open my eyes wide so I can see must be a good prayer.

I pray for you that your anxiety and tension and stress be seen through and thus vanquished. And that you do not listen to self-harming voices but say no and take a different path to health and well-being at every level.

Email to client...

Dear Students, Today I am posting an email I sent to one of my female clients, who has just separated from her husband. I have changed identifying information, to respect confidentiality. I think by reading it, you can learn a great deal. I have kept the words to her soft, so they can be heard. She is not a student, so she does not have the same level of understanding that students achieve over time, but she is a very long term client. Here is the email:

Dearest -----

You have made the physical separation from your husband, now you must make the psychological separation, which can only happen inside you. For so long you have defined yourself in relation to your husband. Over time, that became a definition that was painful to you, and you sought to remove yourself from that pain.

Stay clear that the ego will seek to continue to keep you in pain. That is what ego does. Ego is a pain machine.

Watch the issues of boundaries. Instead of constantly saying that he is overstepping your boundaries, simply, clearly state what you want. To yourself. To him. I’d just leave out the word boundaries, if you can.

Boundaries can be an offensive and defensive word. You needed to use it when you were making your move and getting stronger. Now you can just be an adult and clearly state - "This is what I want. This is what I choose. This is what I am doing. I do not want that. I do not choose that. Not right now, please. Maybe later. NO. Yes."

These are all good statements for you to consider.  You can just say, no. You can say, not now. You can say, no, thank you. You can say, I don’t want to. You can say, Can you please tell me what you mean, because I don’t understand. You can say, yes. You can say, I need time to think about that. You can say, I can’t answer that right now. You can say, I am feeling uncomfortable and need to be with my own energy right now, so I can deal with my feelings.

These are good “I” statements. You will find your own, the more you turn within.

“I” statements will help you go within to find out what you are feeling and thinking. “I” statements tend to be less combative, less offensive, less defensive, less confusing.

Keep in mind, you both love your children. So far your husband has been supportive of your move, providing  for you financially. Do your best to stay with what is, not go into fear. Fear is the greatest weapon of control. Don’t forget that.

People say all kinds of things when they feel attacked and afraid. Do your best not to give power to what people say when they are feeling defensive, afraid, attacked. Try to just see. Really see. Do your best not to react.

Right now, today, everything is okay. Now you have a chance to look at the pain that is within you. When your husband was always there, it was easy to see that your pain was caused by your interaction with him. When he is not there, you have the beautiful opportunity to advance spiritually by taking full responsibility for your own pain — seeing it.

As the angels say, “what you are not aware of controls you. When you become aware of something, it begins to lose control over you.”

The problem is where the pain is. This is a universal truth.

This is a beautiful time for you, an opportunity for expansion and freedom.

I trust that you and your husband will be able to work everything out in a way that serves both of you and your family. Old patterns are being broken. Ego will resist that. Be patient, loving, and kind with yourselves and each other as you work to overcome the feelings of fear, pain, and limitation. You can do it! There is no enemy.

What is beautiful to remember is that even as human beings fight against each other, each of you has an angel who holds you in the light. Angels always work together. When you can attune to your angel, you are attuning to the angel of everyone. This is because angels serve only God’s will, and so angels exist in harmony, even while we exist in conflict.

Love,
Indira

WALKING THROUGH THE GARDEN OF LIFE

Dear Students, Many of you write to me privately, and I answer your emails eventually. Here's an email I wrote to a student, which I am posting here for all of you. I have left off identifying information, so as to keep the person's identity private, though I know she wouldn't mind her name being here. Here is my email to her:

Response to Petra

Petra, I tried to write this as a comment, but it was too long, so the blogger wouldn't let me. So here it is as a post:

Petra, I appreciate that you so readily share your questions here in Your Open Classroom. This benefits other students also, who come here to read, even if they do not come to write.

You benefit most when you come out of "hiding" and are willing to share your confusion and questions, as well as insights and answers, here in the Open. Your OPEN Classroom.

I think you have found your answers as you wrote. This is part of the value of writing. There is a special energy that permeates this classroom. It is the energy of the angels, of Truth, of all students who come here, searching for answers.

Response to Gabi and Jen

Hello Dear Students, I decided to create a new post here, rather than adding to the comments in the recent questions and posts. 

Gabi, I very much like Elisabeth's response to you and to Jen. Elisabeth (Sanatha) has often made herself vulnerable here in the classroom, talking about her own battle with depression (an inherited predisposition)...and her last comments here show that she is imbibing the teachings. I so admire each of you for reaching out, for making the inner commitment to break free. I admire your courage. It is not easy to make one’s self vulnerable….even here in the Classroom. It may seem easier to hide in the shadows….not to make ourselves too vulnerable to ridicule or pain. It seems safer, sometimes, in the shadows.