Response to Student

Dear Students💚
Today's message is a reply to an email a new student recently sent me. I am posting her email as she wrote it, though I made a few corrections in punctuation, for clarity. Her first language is German, so please keep that in mind. I will post the email exchange exactly as it happened. I am leaving out her name. She gave her permission to post her emails though. And if she chooses to post something here, she can. Love, Indira

This is my response to her first email (which I have not copied here, since it was long and not so coherent):

Dear One💚
I have read what you have written. Could you please write to me what your exact question is, in a more clear way? You don’t really seem to have asked one, just told me what you are feeling and experiencing. This will also help you to get more clarification for yourself and what your real true question is. The angels always say…if you want the right answer, you have to ask the right question.

So she wrote a more clear email:

Dear judy💚
Thank you for your quick reply. Now I hope I'll get it to the point. My exact demand is—I want to understand, why I can't still  switch to the other state—the state of more surrender, of more being okay with me and reality, of more being myself. Why am I apparently not ripe yet for going the next step? I yearn so much for this condition and I think (perhaps another concept)  that I am so far and so willing. What stops me yet? I feel bogged down, how can I get out? This rubber band makes me helpless, anxious, and also aggressive. What can I do so I don't feel so discouraged? I guess it's more than impatience. For me, it is a great longing, and it´s very hard for me to feel stuck. How can I get out? (I guess) I cannot wait for it to change. In my imagination I see me as a child in front of the closed ice cream shop. Ihat´s what i wanted to ask you. Thank you for taking time for me! Best regards 💚

And here is my response, which may benefit you too:

Dear One💚
Your questions will be answered in the fullness of time.
You are like someone standing in the dark, watching the moon that is only half full, asking:  When will it be full?

In Truth, the moon is always herself, always full, already blossomed. A person with knowledge knows that the moon is always full. That person does not yearn for what it knows is already there.

The search for happiness is itself unhappiness.

Sit in the stillness when you can. Be like a scientist. Observe. Watch. Witness. Learn. Let the Watching be your Teacher. Do your best not to grab hold of each thought and turn it into an “I”

I long to be happy. I am not happy. I am anxious. I am stressed.

This is false identification. There is no I—  no  ME  to  be  anything at all. A me comes into being with each passing thought that you identify with — and so create a myriad of stories. Just let each story pass by. See each thought like a bubble floating past the otherwise calm abode of the mind.

Each thought demands that you give it life. Each thought tells you how to handle a situation — get angry, get sad, get despondent, do this, do that….

The moon grows full before your eyes in the fullness of time — and yet it was always full — only your seeing is not. Breathe in the longing, the pain, and give it a home in your heart. It is lonely. It believes it is real. Let it curl up inside your heart like a small kitten — let it know it can take all the time it needs to grow up — treat it with tenderness and care, not stress and anxiety.

God is with you. Angels are with you. Walk your path gently. Do not be hard on yourself. Be soft. Be gentle. Be accepting. Trust.

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