Dear classmates,
have you read the New Year's Message for 2015:
http://www.theclearandsimpleway.com/monthlymessages.htm ?
I like it and I'm glad I came across it, better said it came across me... (thanks Judy for writing it!)
As around most New Year's, I think around things... and so I couldn't help thinking about how my life should be like, how I or even we as couple or family should be like... I realized that in my questioning, I'm looking at others, comparing... and I did some writing about it. Actually I was asking questions and the pen had some answers. Basically I learned that almost all of my questions were based on judgement - of myself. Even when I felt sad about that it was another judgement.
I tried to understand how "things should be"? How can it matter (what I do) and at the same time be a matter of unimportance (no judgement, nor good nor bad, just be)?
I cannot comprehend now. When I try, my mind soon gets confused. But when I go into the silence of my heart... or into the universe, which might be the same, I know it is true. And the silence is comforting. And even when I can't find the silence at one time, remembering the silence is also comforting and a good way to come out of trying to understand with my mind.
So, happy silent new year :-)
Petra
have you read the New Year's Message for 2015:
http://www.theclearandsimpleway.com/monthlymessages.htm ?
I like it and I'm glad I came across it, better said it came across me... (thanks Judy for writing it!)
As around most New Year's, I think around things... and so I couldn't help thinking about how my life should be like, how I or even we as couple or family should be like... I realized that in my questioning, I'm looking at others, comparing... and I did some writing about it. Actually I was asking questions and the pen had some answers. Basically I learned that almost all of my questions were based on judgement - of myself. Even when I felt sad about that it was another judgement.
I tried to understand how "things should be"? How can it matter (what I do) and at the same time be a matter of unimportance (no judgement, nor good nor bad, just be)?
I cannot comprehend now. When I try, my mind soon gets confused. But when I go into the silence of my heart... or into the universe, which might be the same, I know it is true. And the silence is comforting. And even when I can't find the silence at one time, remembering the silence is also comforting and a good way to come out of trying to understand with my mind.
So, happy silent new year :-)
Petra
So much in your writing here, Petra. And it does pertain to our past lesson "Questions." Glad to see you are doing your work! "Basically I learned that almost all of my questions were based on judgement - of myself." Yes--a courageous and honest look at yourself. Just a reminder--those judgments come not from the real self who loves you very much, but from the false self. I always enjoy the depth of your introspection and appreciate your putting your contemplation into writing for the benefit of your classmates, as well as yourself.
ReplyDeleteI also like the New Year Message, thank you very much, Indira. I haven't much of depth to add just now, so I will not say more, but I do enjoy reading the depth that Petra wrote.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comments. I' m glad you're here!
ReplyDeleteI have come here to read this over several times myself - as if it wasn't me who wrote in the first place. This is still going on.... I come and read and realize 'oh, I'm STILL doing it'.
Again so today, when I feel kind of unhappy with myself, I see: 'oh, I'm doing THIS.' And I so appreciate your reminder, where it is coming from AND, today, even more important, that the real self loves me very much. Because that seems the starting point... it all seems that way only when I am not aware enough to know that I can not be disconnected (which also means I am endlessly loved). Like there's a Play going on and I'm acting and I think that is real; but it's not.
God, how can I stop doing this Game show ??
Yes, Petra--I love that you are putting into practice one of the best and most encouraged tools of our school--writing. You might remember reading that when you write, you become both teacher and student--and that re-reading what you have written, after some time has passed--allows you to see even more in your words. You are experiencing this now, as you read your post again.
ReplyDeleteNo need to write "depth" everytime, Kevin. Enough just to show up and take the time to let your fingers dance across the your computer keys. The Great Universal Energy knows you are here--and really likes it when you show up and put in time and energy to connect, even in a small way. And it isn't so small--you added depth to Petra's experience with your words.