Response to Petra

Petra, I tried to write this as a comment, but it was too long, so the blogger wouldn't let me. So here it is as a post:

Petra, I appreciate that you so readily share your questions here in Your Open Classroom. This benefits other students also, who come here to read, even if they do not come to write.

You benefit most when you come out of "hiding" and are willing to share your confusion and questions, as well as insights and answers, here in the Open. Your OPEN Classroom.

I think you have found your answers as you wrote. This is part of the value of writing. There is a special energy that permeates this classroom. It is the energy of the angels, of Truth, of all students who come here, searching for answers.

I am glad to hear you still following your past homework, "still noticing miracles." This is a great exercise. It helps keep our vision uplifted towards heaven, instead of downward...towards...well...

Only those who actually SHOW UP - read the lessons and messages - practice the homework - practice inner contemplation - apply the practices and teachings to their own life - to find out what is true for your own self - only then can one benefit. Still, even being connected with the school provides some support. The more you give, the more you receive. Everything is given here, and the tuition is very minimal.

You wrote, "But then again, I thought that the soul or the real me can never be harmed/injured, can it? So if I worked on healing of an "outer" part of myself - what would it be for? Wouldn`t I try to heal Ego? In a way I found that I have made Ego to sort of an enemy - and that is not love, not my true self."

Your clarity here is very good, and you found it yourself, by writing! Good for you. The true you is never born and never dies. There is no birth or death. But if these words are not understood with the heart, then they have no meaning for the soul. They are only intellectual understanding. We must be very careful not to simply parrot spiritual words, as if we understand them.

If the body needs healing, then we deal with this at a physical level. We cannot just wait for spirit to come heal us -- we do not have this much power. This does not mean miracles of healing do not happen -- but they seldom (if ever) happen to a lazy, passive person who just demands healing from God.

Notice the way your thoughts go rather continuously in the direction of thinking about birth traumas. Notice that these thoughts keep you in the past, in lack, loss, fear and limitation. Notice that they keep you from being here in the present moment.

There never was a birth trauma for SPIRIT. Your beautiful spirit felt itself (and for your children, it is the same) -- moving from one level to another. Just as tiny seeds must push themselves up through the soil, sometimes through harsh conditions, through rock and sand, through hard winter nights, towards the light of the sun - to birth.

Not one thing is wrong with the journey the tiny seed makes. The earth does not think, "oh, giving birth is so hard, all these millions of seeds over eons of time, all these plants, flowers, and trees, pushing their way through my body to greet their father, the Sun." The earth is in constant creation, constant joy. The seeds are following their natural intuitive instinct to grow towards the light.

Tell yourself, simply, birth happened for the physical being because Spirit needed a physical body for its soul journey. The ONLY limitation is your wrong beliefs that the experience was traumatic and needs healing. The angels tell you here and now -- they were there with you, at all births -- it was beautiful. You breathed. Your body was one with the heartbeat of Mother Earth. Father Sun reached his arms of light down to bring you (and your children) into the physical plane of existence. The angels say, we tell you, healing is complete now. Because you have appeared here, in Your Open Classroom, with an Open Heart, asking true questions of your soul -- because you have sought your own answers -- put forth effort --

then the angels extend their healing energy to you -- which is the energy of your true nature. The angels say, do not let negative thoughts control you. Do not let them keep you in the past. It is only thoughts that tell you something is/was wrong -- and then the thoughts try to convince you that you need them even more -- you need them to help you get free of the pain of the past.

And yet, there is no pain. Not here and now. Nothing bad ever happened in your birth. It was as it was. It brought you here. Here you can be born again each moment. You do not have to go back into your past, recall some trauma, re-experience the past (unless this happens naturally and spontaneously, which is another thing).

The angels say you are only in pain about the past when you THINK about it. As soon as the thoughts go, so does the pain. You must RECALL (call back) the thoughts in order to have the experience of pain again. See -- it is all in the thinking. As we think, so are we.

Breathe through the pain. Do nothing from your old ego nature to try and heal it. This only gives the ego a sense of (false) power -- "see, how great I am! I can control her. I can make her believe in pain, then I can decide how she will heal this pain. Yes! Then I have plenty of food to eat, and I grow fatter."