QUESTION AND ANSWER

Question:
Fear of failure: I have started - and failed - at so many businesses in the past.....mainly from picking partners who have taken advantage of me and my hard work ethic and my passion. So now I feel paralyzed to start something new. I feel the loss of passion for starting something new. How can I get this back? I used to be so passionate about my creative projects!

Response:
Hmm.....interesting. You say that when you had your passion in the old days, you chose bad partners and failed. And yet, you want that passion back again...(!?) This is how the human mind works. The human mind generally thinks in terms of the past (get something back) or the future. The mind does not know how to be fully present in the present.

Instead of hoping and wishing to have something from the past back again, simply breathe, relax and discover where you are right now. It is your yearning for a memory (your "passion" is only a memory).....which is the trouble to begin with. When you are busy telling God what should be (I should feel my old passion).....you are just busy getting in the way of God's plan for you. You are busy telling God what you need.

The angels kindly suggest that you get out of the way. Admit to yourself that you do not really want your "old" passion back. Why? Because it did not work for you! So of course you are afraid. Repeating old ways of failure simply leads to new ways of failure.

Be humble. Tell God you do not know what you need. Let go of trying to get back a memory of passion. Stop thinking that you need a memory of passion restored to you so that you can feel vital and alive. Can you see that you are simply attached to a memory of the way you think you used to be?

Stop limiting yourself with a memory. Stop telling yourself that you can move forward only with this "passion." If you believe this, it becomes true for you. Stop making it true for you.

The angels say that it is possible to move forward with peace and relaxation. What is holding you back is only an idea in your head....an idea that you must have this (remembered) passion to move forward. Forget this. Passion blinded you and got in the way of your success in the past. Throw your idea of passion out the window. Allow it be replaced with true passion. You do not have to know what this passion looks or feels like. It will be new. It will be true. It will be peace. It will guide you.

Nice to see you here

I see that some of you have posted. We better stay with English, since all of you do not understand German (including me) (well, not very well). I will be back later with some answers to some questions that were written to me.

QUESTION AND ANSWER

A student wrote:

"Remember, I once asked why I find no man who loves me? Now, I am since 3 Years in a partnership where I am mostly with my boyfriend day and night, 2-3 days alone. He loves me, but I have problems to be at ease and happy with this great success for myself because I never had a long-term relationship, only short affairs. I am afraid of myself being with my friend because I have problems with too much nearness. Why am I not happy, although I desired a relationship so long?"

Response:

The ego is filled with desires. We erroneously believe that fulfilling these desires is what leads to true happiness. In truth, the fulfillment of desire leads to temporary happiness.

The only true happiness is found by going beyond the desires of the mind, to the true Source of all happiness.

Everything in the outer world changes. Therefore, we cannot depend upon the outer world to bring us true and lasting joy.

You are afraid because you are living in the past and the future. This prevents you from being present with your boyfriend, as he is, as you are. You have a "bully" who lives inside you. This bully has one job - to make sure that you do not enjoy the present moment.

The bully is just an old habit that lives inside you.

Simply continue to read your lessons. This fills you with the inspiring, uplifting energy of the angels. This allows you to record over past impressions of lack, loss, fear, and limitation.

You do not have to "try" to get rid of anything. How can the ego get "rid" of itself? The ego will, in fact, resist trying to get rid of itself. The ego does everything it can to survive. And this is okay. This is the nature of ego. Simply watch the ego. Witness it. Writing is a wonderful way to increase your awareness of the ego and its games.

Remember: what you are not aware of controls you; when you become aware of something, it begins to lose control over you.

So, watch the ego. Get to know its games. You do not have to join the ego in its games of lack, loss, fear, and limitation.

Tell yourself the truth. What is the truth? You tell yourself, "I never had a long-term relationship." - and then you believe this - and act from this. But it is not true. You ARE having a long-term relationship!

The truth is that you are NOT afraid of too much nearness!!!! How do we know this is true? Because you HAVE nearness with him.....you are with him most of the time. You ARE experiencing and learning about intimacy. So, begin to tell yourself a NEW and more truthful story. "I am in a long-term relationship. I am experiencing nearness with my boyfriend. I am courageous because I spend so much time with him. I am learning what nearness is. There is no such thing as too much nearness...that is only a thought in my head. I have 2 - 3 days for myself."

Love and Light,
Indira & the angels

You are the Way, the Truth, and the Light

The class is growing. Some of you choose not to post here in the Open Classroom, and this is fine. There are no hard and fast rules. In this classroom, you are learning to think for yourself, to decide for yourself what is true for you.
The angels are guides along the way. They are not the Way. You, yourself are the Way, unfolding like a perfect flower.