Try reading this slowly and see if it applies to you, or perhaps someone you know? Or perhaps to the world in general. There are many ways we run from ourselves...even getting involved in useless thoughts, daydreams...even nightmares. "Truths come to us a thousand times a day, but unless we open our hearts
and minds, they cannot enter with their supply of health and
youthfulness.
For instance, Grace L. was not receptive to one of these health-giving
truths. Her emptiness compelled her to sigh, 'I'm always worn out. I
know I'd feel better if I stopped running so hard. Why do I drain my
strength in so many activities? I have a compulsive drive to get
involved in this stupid activity or that mad chase. Why am I driven to
get involved in so many pointless pursuits?'
'There is something you must understand, a new truth you must receive.
You see, Grace, you really don't want to go toward these activities. You
want to go away from something.'
'You mean I want to escape from something?'
'Yes.'
'What do I want to escape?'
'Yourself.'
'My own self?'
'It is a self that you don't like, don't understand and don't trust; so
it pains you. Your frantic activities are attempts to escape from an
unwanted self. The objects of your chase really mean nothing to you. To
prove this, notice how often you change directions. One day it's a new
hobby, then a new club, then some social cause.'
'That's right. I'm like a child wanting a new toy every day.' She paused
for a moment, then asked, 'So I wear myself out with these pointless
pursuits in an attempt to escape my own inner pain?'
'Yes. Try to see this clearly. Then, you will stop running. Your time
and energy will then go into healthy channels, such as self-discovery.
And you will no longer be tired.'"
-Vernon Howard