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| What blocks happiness? |
Today I received a payment from a student who always pays her tuition on time, without even a word from me. This was a very happy payment because she included a note that said, "I think the payments to you are the happiest ones!" I felt happy reading her words, grateful for her gratitude, but also because I know she is paying attention to her everyday life. She knows when payments are due. She is taking responsibility for her life, which is part of our spiritual path. Thank you, dear student! She also said the Open Classroom is her favorite place to visit early mornings!
I also like coming to Your Open Classroom, especially when I find new messages. And her words make me want to write even more here, since I know there is an early morning visitor stopping by. So if you see more of me here, you can thank her. Gratitude is healing both to give and receive! And thank you to all of you who show up here and participate when you have the time. Speaking of happiness. Do you know one of the biggest blocks to happiness?
The biggest block to happiness? Our preconceived notions of happiness!Imagine the mind filled with blocks. Maybe children's blocks, you know, the kind they play with? Imagine that each of these blocks in your head has a different desire written on it, which you believe will bring you happiness -- if -- if you can only fulfill it!
When we are busy trying to fulfill these desires, there is no room for our true self. No space to listen to words of higher Truth. No possibility to realize that happiness is not the fulfillment of a desire. If it were, then by now you'd be supremely happy, because certainly you have fulfilled many desires by now. The angels suggest you tell yourself, "My mind does not know what true happiness is." Listen to yourself and let the words sink deep into your heart. Let yourself say and experience these words at different levels within your being.
As you do, a light might turn on within you. A new realization might dawn, "I do not know what happiness is!"
You may begin to feel light, free, and full of possibilities! Because the old blocks filled with desires will begin to tumble from your mind! And when they do, you will be left with space! Vast space! Space that can be filled with Truth!
As you let go of your concepts and ideas of what happiness is, you begin to leave space for what Happiness IS! Free of concepts! Free of desire! Free of ego! Free! And happy!
The blocks to happiness that are still inside me, but which I am becoming more aware of, and which are not controlling me in the same way, are what society tells me I should be or have. That I should be successful and make a lot of money. I used to be driven by these kinds of outer goals, but something inside me was always rebelling. Something inside me knew the truth, even before I found it here. But I didn't have confirmation for it in the outside world. So the school is like a breath of fresh air, because it shows me another way to live. Yeah, when I get out there in the work world I forget all over again, so I need to keep coming back here to the classroom, to my lessons, to be reminded all over again. More and more I find I am able to remember when I am caught up in the "rat race."
ReplyDeleteSome people have been falling away from my life since I got more involved in my spiritual life. At first, I was startled. Then I realized that I no longer had anything in common with those people. And that they were actually pulling my energy down.
I am interested in the new Kevin who is emerging. I am only a little emerged. I have much more work to do. Lots of the old Kevin is still there, but I am not so hard on him anymore. And I know I can come here and write and when I write here, something is lifted from me. I feel relieved. Lighter.
I would say overall that the changes that happen to me when I keep up with the school and read my lessons, well, those changes are not always easy. Because I see my ego self in a way I never did before. And that can be hard. But what I mean is, it feels good to see the truth, to get free from my concepts, even when it hurts. I see that the way to Truth is not easy. And I remember what Indira wrote me once, that the angels promise a clear and simple way, but they never said it was easy.
Dear classmates,
ReplyDeleteI want to share, what the Sprossenquarze (maybe some of the other students have a proper translation for this) told me the other day. My knowledge of the language is not enough to express the poetical way that the crystals talked to me, but here we are:
"Like a closed blossom with thousands of petals, When you see the peak, you can have a glimpse of the color, the beauty of the blossom, the potential: We show you, that you are a complex being with thousands of facets around a center. There is a center. Around the center there are the layers, the clothes, the skirts. Every layer, every petal expresses diversity and enrichment and they are all enlightened by the same center. Please do not confine yourself; live your diversity. Every part, that you experience, live, show...brings new petals, new facets. The glory that is within you is endless. The form of expressions of you is endless. You are so much more than you are able to get to know in this life. We ask you to grow permanently out of yourself and out of what you know until now from yourself. Be brave. You will be surprised about yourself and about your fellows. When you discover the complexity of yourself, you will be surprised about the complexity of the others. Do not stand still, go further. We do not say leave your center. Radiate from the center into every fiber of your being. Make every bit glowing and bring it into appearance. Do it with joy. Be like a cathedral, like a sacral building."
With love
Monika
Hi Monika,
ReplyDeleteFor other students: by Sprossenquarze, Monika is referring to some kind of quartz crystal and saying she communicates with crystals and stones.
And your DO write very poetically, Monika. It is beautiful writing and I can envision the images your writing evokes. I don't know how know how it sounded in German, but it sounds lovely in English.
Thank you very much for posting it. I like the idea of being like a cathedral, like a sacred building.
Yes, I want to thank whoever it is, Indira, that sent you the thank you note and inspired you to write more often in the open classroom. I am always very happy when I see a note from the teacher here! I am always uplifted by the light and the truth and the lessons in them.
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Mary Birdsongs
Hi Monika, thanks for sharing about the talking crystals. I am learning new things I never knew existed. I am happy to have such interesting classmates. The crystals are wise. And they must be, when I think of them growing there in the dark for long, but carrying the light inside them.
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