ego

Hi everybody,

I am happy to be part of this school to learn to be happy to be me. There is a lot that I have to learn. Reading our first lesson I got stuck with the word "ego". What does it mean? Is it a part of me? Is it only negative? I always undersood the word as I, myself and egoistic as selfish, putting myself first. If it is a part of me how can I / should I get rid of it?

For a long time I've put my husbands needs first and after some years this made me unhappy, angry and upset. Now I try to be more selfish, try to get him to do more for me and feel better for it. Am I getting mean? Is the ego taking over?

I am looking forward to some answers,

Many thanks, Gabi