Hello to all of you,
sometimes I find this project "earth" very curious...
when I came into the post office singing, I stopped it, because people stood there and it was so quiet that I could not go on singing, or better I thought I couldn't do it,
I saw woman with very high heels walking so concentrated on cobblestone (Kopfsteinpflaster - hab ich nachgeschlagen), trying to smile,
businessmen with ties in the hottest summer, why do we do this?
I recognize myself having small talks about nothing interesting and also thinking about being "right" dressed... I want to be seen and on the other side I want to be like everybody else...to hide myself.
A lot of our rules and how we have to behave ourselves seem to be so..I don't know the word, but it feels not normal.
Why is it the way it is? Very often it shouln't be the way it is,
and now at the moment writing these sentences I feel so happy, knowing that there is so much more in everything, and I also feel sad, because there exists so much and I don't live it.
I will do it more and more and I'm so thankful about my work with children, because they touch my soul and they are full with love and they live it,
every moment,
every moment,
every moment....
(and whenever I go to the kindergarden I'm always "right" dressed, in the best case it should be very colourful!)
I'm happy!
Now I share this feeling with all of you,
love from Antje
Hi Antje,
ReplyDeleteI have similar experiences with singing in public. When I am riding the bike to town in the mornings I like to sing and I do it loudly even when I pass walking people or people on bikes. But as soon as I approach a traffic light where people are waiting I stop singing. And I am wondering about this behaviour.
Hi Antje, I love what you wrote. It could be a lesson all by itself! That would be a nice homework...for everyone to give themselves a "kindergarten" day. My pets are like that too, you know...they don't care how I dress, so long as I am kind and loving to them. I like the way you are progressing toward more freedom.
ReplyDeleteDear Judy,
ReplyDeletethank you so much for your answer and your beautiful smiling face, now I am smiling back...
TO ALL OF YOU
Are you still wondering about that behavior, Monika?
ReplyDeleteGood to "see" you here, Antje!
Yes Judy,
ReplyDeleteI find it strange not showing the inner joy. Why is it so that we are/ I am different in some situations. It is common but is it normal ?
Gute Frage, Monika!
ReplyDeleteI really like your question. I suggest you use this question as a contemplation to know yourself better. Notice the way that you change in different situations. Study yourself doing this, without necessarily trying to change it. Simple be aware. Get to know yourself, in all your many manifestations.
The "problem" isn't so much that we change...it is the judgments we have as we change. For example, maybe you like the person you are as you are singing on your bike, so there is no problem. Or maybe you are judging yourself, but in a positive way. Or maybe you are just in Oneness, your true happy nature.
Maybe there is a shy part of you who stops singing at the traffic light (or stops to be more socially acceptable). In neither of those cases is there something wrong with the action. Maybe it is even appropriate to sing when you do and stop when you do.
As you observe yourself being different in different situations, you will come to know yourself better. And this is the ultimate goal. To know yourself. Awareness. Consciousness.
Gute Frage. Let the question reveal to you the answers. And please share what you find, if you like.