Hi Everyone,
Hope this goes thru to you, guys. I sent a post on 3/19....went somewhere in cyberspace!
It's 12 noon in California....gorgeous sunny day. Watching my animals sitting peacefully in the yard. It's so simple for them....they're are content with just being. Loving, trusting....living in the moment. I do envy them.
I can chose to have a good day or not. It is a conscious decision. When I take "everything" personally, don't know how to separate my truth from others, I always get the same results. Self-loathing....it's old....doubt, resentment, then I blame everyone...think everyone has wronged me. .....can I just let people be who they are? Being aware helps...the behavior is familiar and habitual...know the answers are within. So glad to be part of this class and would like to hear if others identify.
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ReplyDeleteYou speak honestly, openly, and intelligently about the experiences that all people have at times. I like what you say about choosing to have a good day as a conscious decision. Only in unconsciousness do we choose a bad day. Consciousness always chooses what is affirming.
ReplyDeleteGood morning Indira,
ReplyDeleteToday I do chose joy. Interesting at a meeting last night. Felt very uncomfortable and didn't want to socialize afterwards. Later realized that I identified this as being in a classroom as a child. Feelings of not belonging, no one cares about me, everyone has friends and I don't....the chatter went on. I do believe that this came up from being in your classroom. I got to see what was then is not what's true today.
Hello Daisy Mae,
ReplyDeleteI like your stile of writing. For me I get an imression with what you are sourrounded...
Here in Mainz, Germany, it is 7 in the evening. And slowly I am arriving on/in (wich word is right ? ) this day. I do not do this very often, but last night I started to read and did not stop until 8 in the morning.
What you wrote about feelings of not belonging, I know this very well from myself. Only in the last few months this is changing (and I am 53 now ). And I cannot exactly tell how this changed for me. But it is giving me more peace.
Daisy Mae, thank you for being such an open and activ part of the open classroom. I appreaciate it very much. It gives me the chance to be also active here. And I am about discovering that part for myself, being part of and on top being activ in a group.
Love
Monika
As you grow in consciousness, you will naturally act with greater compassion and intelligence. Growth is easier in a space of self-acceptance. Some say the road to heaven is paved with gold. Angels say the road to heaven is paved with self-acceptance. Acceptance is the key that opens the door to healing.
ReplyDeleteHi Monika,
ReplyDeleteI do appreciate your honesty, as well. I look forward to receiving the gifts that you have received.
I, too, am becoming more comfortable in the classroom. There's no judgment. To just be....to be true to myself....wow...that would feel wonderful. When I read into what people say or take it personally, the hurt feelings always come up. It's more difficult in business when I get into personalities and who is wrong or right. I'm constantly told not to take things personally. I have so much self doubt about my own capabilities in all areas of my life. It feels good to voice this and know that I'm not alone with my thoughts.
I sent Indira an e-mail over the weekend re questions I ask myself....my dog groomer found a fatty lump on my dog while bathing him. I reacted, not to her, but to myself....is he going to be OK, why didn't I find this, I'm not a good pet owner, what if he has cancer....and on and on. I heard the questions, not at first, and then said how can I help this little guy? I made a vet appt. for him for next week. I immediately go into fear and doubt. Glad all of you are here.
Rena